Monday, October 20
I can't believe this semester is ending in a few weeks' time.
I can't believe I need to take exams once again.
And I can't believe this semester is like the same as the rest of the other semesters, just only very different. Once again I convinced myself to start studying only after mid-term, and I'm not entirely sure I'm putting my best foot forward. I lack the motivation and drive, it seems. Just tired of trying. When you are in your final year, you want to enjoy the remaining days playing, doing things you like. But I'm constantly studying, and constantly trying to maintain my grades to no avail.
I'm looking forward to end of this semester. Seems like I'm always trying to look forward, to pick myself up from the present and drop into the future. Always seems as though the grass is greener on that side.
But I appreciate the tranquility and monotone right now. I like the motion that I go through week by week. I enjoy having some certain pattern in my schedule. It's easy, and it's blissful, in a sense.
I wonder what I blog for anyway.
Posted by Isabelle at 2:40 am